Thursday, March 5, 2009

Lies

Last week i began to message a guy called 'D'. He's my text mate. I felt happy when I chat with him. Eventually when he did not reply, I will feel very uneasy. Not knowing what's the reason, I don't feel like message with others until i get his message. He's a wonderful guy. Few of my frens admiring him.Maybe is because his smile attractive?? or because he likes to flirt??urghhh..i don't know..sometimes when we chat, he did make me misunderstand about 'something'. But I know he wouldn't love a girl like me and we wouldn't have any further relation other than just FRIENDS. I knew it from very the start that he's kinda a player. But when i asked him does he knows how to flirt. He say he don't know. So i trusted what he said. We were very enjoyed texting with each other and i shared few of my secrets to him. He promised me that he would keep it as secret but then i realised it today that he told my fren called 'W' about my secret. wtf..i was like being fooled lorhhh..today im having a raptai sukan at school. I chat alot with 'W' about 'D' and another girl called 'C'. 'W' told me that she and 'C' went to met 'D' yesterday at his house. 'W' told me that 'C' and 'D' was hugging and kissing with each other. OMGOD!!! It was so suddenly. I didn't know that someone atcually can kissed with another person though u don't even loves that person. But what I most can't believed is that 'D' told me he don't like 'C' at all. So what is the hugging and kissing part all about?? i'm too stupid to believed what he said. Isn't it sounds 'funny'??sighhhhh...Not only that..'W' still told me that everyday he would message damn lots of gals and flirt till damn over. haihz..i feel sad when i heard about it because i realise I"M NOT THE ONLY ONE. He lied to me..break his promise. What else???I don't know should I continue trusting such person??Should I pretend that I don't know anything or should I ask what's happening?? But if someone were to ask me to pretend that i don't know anything, I'm sorry to say that I CANT..i'm still struggling here..whether to reply his message or not..someone told me that i mind about what's happening is because i loved him. But....do I?? I told him today not to hurt the one he loved if he finds it one day. I really planned not to message him anymore because i'm not afford to play this game but I don't know why I just can't harden my heart...being a fool like this is hurt):